I must say having two kids and taking care of them 24/7 is really not an easy job. Especially when the other half went on a business trip for 2 long weeks! It was a stressful 2 weeks but I guess there are some lessons learned during this period.
Before the arrival of Glennedine, Darrius has my attention 24/7. He follows me to where ever I go. Now that I have Glennedine, I don’t really dare to bring both of them out on my own. However, I have to do it a few times as I don’t have much of a choice during PiggyBeng’s absence.
When PiggyBeng is around, he is the one who will tuck Darrius in at night after I weaned him off. When we have Glennedine, we will all go to the room together but I will tuck her in and PiggyBeng tuck Darrius in. I know Darrius is yearning for me to tuck him in as he is very attached to me. Maybe this is the result of breastfeeding. 😛
Last night we had an early night as Glennedine was very cranky the whole day and she did not get much sleep. She was crying after her feed so I angrily said I want to throw her away for being so ‘ham-pau’. Upon hearing that, Darrius came to me and said ‘mommy, you cannot throw mei-mei away because she is your baby!’ I was surprised he said that. At least I know he truly loves his little sister.
Then I continue to settle Glennedine down and Darrius kept kicking my mattress from his bed and climbing up and down my bed. I scolded him and told him not to kick anymore. Then I asked him why he wants to kick my mattress and come on to my bed? He then told me ‘because I love you mah’. o.O I think he misses my touch which I used to shower him with.
At that very moment I felt so guilty! I realized I have somehow neglected him in some ways since Glennedine’s arrival. Actually he has grown up so much these past months but I failed to notice much. Though he still make me angry and drives me up the wall all the time… well, he is still very much a kid.
I do hope to be able to divide my time equally to both kids…